Nothing is constant in this world. Everything is changing. Even the little things. Day by day, we don’t notice but when we look back to the yesteryears, we will realize that everything has changed. People come and go. Today, they might be there to help you and support you, but on the next day, you’ll find them busy with their own lives and couldn’t even be bothered to talk to. People that you thought who were going to be at your side forever aren’t. You all have your own separate path to walk on. Sometimes, it happens that you’ll be talking to people that you’ve never thought and imagined you’d be speaking to and voila! You’ve made new friends. Life is always like this. We think of it sometimes as a joke and other times, we are taking it seriously. But look, it makes a little sense. The more we age and grow up, the less sense it will make. Life is really short to waste it on nonsense things. Life is full of mysteries. We can never tell what will happen tomorrow. It will just come and then we will just have to see. So make the most out of it now while we have all the time we needed before everything changes once again. Because, in the future, all of these are only gonna be thoughts and memories.
I’ve always felt happy and contented even without the things I thought I needed to feel complete. I’ve always been a strong girl. I’m flexible and driven. But I never thought that at some point, I would have this kind of feeling. As if I were covered by a gloomy atmosphere.
Why am I feeling emptiness at this moment? I feel so empty, dull and lonely. I feel so alone as if I;m not surrounded by my family and friends that I dearly love. But there is something inside of me, searching for that extraordinary feeling. It’s as though that something is sure and knows what it’s looking for and what it’s needing of.
I want to be loved.
I want to be taken care of.
I want to be important.
I want to feel special.
I want someone who can give me that.